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A Fluctuation of Sorts
http://rainhappieblues.blogspot.com/
A journal of my personal journey battling depression, bipolar disorder and awaiting hope of a normal life.
Recent Posts
road trip!
I'm not sleepy and I woke up at 5am yesterday morning after falling asleep at 1230am. wide eyed at 5am in the morning is not fun. I was willing myself to doze back to sleep or to get up and surf the net. Sleeps beckons.Anyway, I will be calling it a ...
Butterfly Fly Away
I watched "Hannah Montana: The Movie" and I fell in love with a few songs and the energy. It's targeted for kids and I'm already moving on in my age, but it's fun and it's nice. Sometimes all you need are things that make you happy and chick flicks a...
sleep! let me sleep!
I didn't do much the last few days. Went out with friends on Fri, didn't drink a drop of alcohol (because I'm on meds) and it made me so lost and out of place. I'm really getting old at 31.. no mood to play, will drink just to release. Still so trapp...
To all my friends: Hang In there
To all my friends out there, thank you for your encouragement. I find this song fitting for all and I want to tell you all to hang on to anything, everything. Each shred of hope, light and belief. That we will get through the pain and never ending ...
Sometimes when I want to release and let go...
*possible trigger*I find it therapeutic to listen to songs and look for videos to match how I feel. That the lyrics describes exactly how I feel and I don't have to explain.I'm not cutting myself though I have a slight urge to.I'm not a strangerNo I ...
I can\'t wash it away!
I don't feel good, my head is full of cobwebs, dusts and all these voices, all these thoughts. I can't make them go away and leave me. They taunt, they repeat and amplify my negativity loudly.I feel small, despised, dirty and worthless. I can f...
