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This is my journal to help me work the twelve steps, especially step twelve as I work the road to recovery.
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I don't go anywhere fast
You and me we're goin' nowhere slowlyAnd we've gotta get away from the pastThere's nothin' wrong with goin' nowhere, babyBut we should be goin' nowhere fastThis is the problem with addiction , not finding contentment in the place that you are. Not wa...
Dealing with expectations and lust
A little advanced warning, this may be a bit long but hopefully I won't ramble too much. MaybeYesterday the odds were stackedIn favor of my expectationsFlyin' above the restNever fallin' from the nestTuesday came and went and nowI'm in a little sit...
Do I really have to start over????
I hate being an addict! I really don't think you understand that I HATE being an addict. You see, the problem is that I think that I have this under control and have 8 months of sobriety under my belt (my drug of choice is fantasy with being lusted a...
Step Six
Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.As an addict I can say that I felt I was at this place for a long time before I started working the steps. Some addicts don't want to get better and only want to learn to control...
Step Five
Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.Forgive me Father for I am a worm. This is a dangerous and crucial step for recovery. By the time the addict gets to here they should/need to have lots of suppor...
Step Four
Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.Now we get to some hard work. In some ways this could easily become a list of faults and failings and nothing more. I think that would be a mistake, a missed opportunity for growth. I am not...
Step Three
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.At times it seems that the journey to recovery requires what seems like superhuman abilities to me, the addict. Step three is a place to learn that we don't h...
Journal 20070701
Tonight, I went to my weekly meeting. Tonight one of our members gave his first step. I know that this was hard for him to do. It took up most of the meeting and his recounting encompassed probably over 30 hand-written pages. This step was a reco...
Journal 20070628
One of my favorite songs from adolescence is For Crying out Loud as performed by MeatLoaf. It still to this day strikes a chord in my heart. However, as I grow and mature I have come to realize that it describes the addict in me and my true self. It...
Lust Versus Intimacy
One of the biggest things addiction to lust, more commonly know as Sex Addicts or Sexaholics, does to a person is it makes them incapable of sharing with anyone else who they really are. It could be due to embarrassment, shame, guilt or a variety of...
The road is long....
I don't know if any of you have the song running through your head that I do right now:He Ain't HeavyThe road is long, With many a winding turn, That leads us to who knowswhere, Who knows where, But I'm strong, Strong enough to carry him, He ain'thea...
Step Two
Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.Again, I find two things laid at my feet in this second step. The first thing is something that should be obvious from the condition the addict finds themselves.As an addi...
Step One: My life is unmanageable due to what?
We admitted that we were powerless over lust -- that our lives had becomeunmanageable.This step has two parts that are very distinct in it. When we begin this process it is out of an admission that our lives are unmanageable, but first our lives hav...
