Recent Posts Tagged With 'fear'

• I need to know will you be my sorrow and my joy...

  Posted on Tuesday December 8th, 2009 at 20:25 in ivf, fear, donor egg, fertility specialist

  I went to Dr. last week for a consultation to talk through the last round of IVF and to discuss the next round.  I've waited to update about this because it hurts to think about and by typing it, it makes it even more real.The Dr. told us that w...

• When darkness comes and pain is all around...

  Posted on Saturday November 21st, 2009 at 20:24 in depression, lost, ivf, fear, sadness, negative, helpless, disappointment

  I'm angry.  I'm so angry I can feel it seething into my skin.I'm sad.  Every time I even think about the picture of our embies...what they could have been...I feel tears welling up in my eyes.I'm tired.  I'm so exhausted after weeks an...

• Yes, proof is the bottom line for everyone...

  Posted on Thursday November 19th, 2009 at 20:41 in Faith, hope, ivf, fear, excitement, embryos, nervous, trying to conceive, beta test

  Tomorrow is the day.  My Beta test is at 8:15 am.  I'm taking the day off because either way it goes, I do NOT want to be at work. I'm anxious, nervous, hopeful, scared and in love...in love with my embies---hoping they are getting big and ...

• I do it for your love...

  Posted on Sunday November 15th, 2009 at 19:18 in hope, ivf, fear, excitement, embryos, nervous, trying to conceive

  Darling Embies:I'm waiting, searching and wanting to feel signs that you are growing and developing but I really can't feel anything.  I pray for you both every moment that I have free to think.  The fertility center called me on Friday to ...

• Was a sunny day, not a cloud was in the sky...

  Posted on Saturday November 7th, 2009 at 18:50 in hope, eggs, ivf, fear, embryos, fertilize, faith., nervous, trying to conceive, icsi, follicles, fertility specialist

  Today is Day 1 post egg retrieval.  Here are our current numbers:12 eggs retrieved9 eggs retrieved were mature and ICSI'd6 eggs fertilized I'm hoping and praying our 6 embryos continue to grow and divide as they are supposed to.  It's ...

• How the heart approaches what it yearns...

  Posted on Monday November 2nd, 2009 at 19:05 in infertility, hope, ivf, fear, pray, follicles, menopur, fertility specialist

  I suppose today is day 10---although I haven't really thought much about number of days.  I'm more focused on number of follicles; number of estradiol; praying every moment I can. Today---I went (again) for bloodwork and an ultrasound.  My ...

• It took a little time, but you calmed me down...

  Posted on Saturday October 31st, 2009 at 20:44 in hope, ivf, fear, period, ultrasound, blood work, follicles, fertility specialist

  Today was the day...the last cycle was cancelled on this day. My period stopped yesterday (thank goodness). My bloodwork was at 29 on Wednesday and now it is at 139. My ultrasound showed 9 (NINE) follicles!!!!  YAHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!  My Dr...

• And I said yeah, maybe I think too much...

  Posted on Sunday October 25th, 2009 at 11:17 in hope, ivf, fear, blood, injections, trying to conceive, lupron, fertility specialist

  I haven't written much because I haven't felt the desire to and I haven't had that much to say. I took my last BCP on 10/21 and had my first U/S and bloodwork done today.  My period has not shown up, yet.  The ultrasound looked good and I w...

• She is like a top; She cannot stop; She moves on...

  Posted on Thursday October 8th, 2009 at 21:20 in ivf, feelings, fear, pain, trying to conceive

  Tomorrow I finish the first pack of BCP pills in cycle #2.  I have 1.5 rows left to go in a new pack before I stop on 10/21 to wait for my period to start.  I ordered my medication today...Low Dose Lupron; Gonal F; Menopur; Novarel...all to go with...