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I was born Frank Cleve, a genetic male. I existed for 40 years trying to be a man while longing to be a woman. Thanks to the love and support of my wife, Joy, I now live as male and female, without surgery or hormones.
(Some call us transvestites or
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Susan, Iowa and me
Susan Stanton, a rather famous male to female transsexual is a friend of mine and my church has been behind her 100% ever since she came out a year ago. Susan Stanton (formerly Steve Stanton) used to ...
Why 91%?
I took an extensive "gender identity" test earlier this year and the results?"Kathryn, we have analyzed the test you took and we have found that you are 91% feminine. When we compare your results with...
Chick Flicks
Joy and I often get into bed and watch a "chick flick" like The Group, based on a book by Mary McCarthy. It's all about women for a change, which is what I love in a movie. Lots of young women who wen...
To Tell The Truth
The night I was on TV.I don't often show pictures from my national television appearance eight years ago for two reasons: 1. I was fifty pounds heavier than I am now. 2. Nearly all the shots are grain...
A TV guide?
First, let me make this perfectly clear: This is only my personal opinion. I do not intend to cast aspersions on anyone or anything.Back in the late Sixties when I first tried to find out if there wer...
Sharon Stone
Joy and I went to see Jack Hanson perform at the Magic Castle in Hollywood, California one night in 2001. Something exciting happened on this night, and it was not a planned act of stage illusion.The ...
Questions and answers
Last week, I spoke - as Kathryn - at a Human Sexuality class at Saint Petersburg College and I was amazed at the affirmative reception. Naturally, as is true of all my speeches, I opened the floor for...
I love the woman in me
During those sad, lonely four decades that I merely dreamed about being female and fantasized what it would be like, I must admit I did not realize just how lovely it would be to look like a pretty wo...
Ordinary girl
This photograph best illustrates why everyone I encountered in California from priest to pizza delivery man was convinced I was a woman.It is obvious that my hair is mine and not a wig. Only a woman w...
Finally! One I like.
I know I sometimes come across like a narcissistic idiot but trust me when I tell you of the 1600-odd photos of me taken over the years, there are only about five in which I believe I am pretty, sexy ...
Feeling femme
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Happiness
I realize that most people who visit this website cannot understand how I could adore women so much that I have always wanted to be a woman. Remember, I do not think I am a "woman trapped in a man's b...
I love shoes!
I love shoes! There, I've said it! I've had really good luck on eBay this year, winning two different pair of shoes by Highlights, the most comfortable high heels I have ever worn.Here are the black ...
Change is in the air
A trait that Joy and I share is the ability to deal effectively with change.I was laid off from my dream job yesterday and Joy has hated her job for some time now.So, we have decided to move back to L...
It's okay, I'm sane!
For those who may be concerned, I am completely aware that I am not an actual woman. I am reminded of it every time I appear naked in my bathroom or bed.I do not for a moment feel that I am or ever wa...
Not from Mars
I worry sometimes that the idle web surfer stumbling on my blog thinks I am crazy, conceited or from Mars.I am not. I am simply an old man who spent the majority of his life wanting to be something he...
Obsessed? No. Proud.
A friend asked me last week if I was obsessed with being a woman. No. I am not.For "obsessed" means "a recurring thought that a person considers senseless or terrible but cannot ignore." Obviously, I ...
Wish I could explain
One of the small sorrows of being an imitation female (femulator) is that it is so difficult to share the pleasure, the rush, the happiness these clothes bring me. Frankly, after being like this for f...
Explaining Ecstasy
I wish I could explain to the genetic women who read my blog what ecstasy I feel wearing the clothing that they most likely take for granted. Since I am a teleworker and work from my home office, I dr...
Sharing
As I have mentioned before, I receive some wonderful Emails from viewers of my blog. While protecting their anonymity, I want to share just a bit."I was deeply moved by what you wrote and I'm greatly ...
Write Like A Woman
A fan of this blog recently copied and pasted one of my posts into the "Gender Genie" which proudly reported "The Gender Genie thinks the author of this passage is: female!"The Gender Genie is an onli...
Working Girl
Back in 2002, when I lived as a woman 24/7 in Los Angeles, I admit that working at the drywall company every day was a bit of a strain. I not only had to look convincingly feminine, I had to be effici...
Shaving Legs
OK, I'll say it: I enjoy being a girl! It took me four decades to finally become one and I will be the first to admit: It's awesome being female, or a reasonable facsimile.I get to wear a bra! I get ...
Worthwhile
Being raised by two women is one thing. Being raised by two women who had bad experiences with men before I came along and who were glad to share their stories with me ad infinitum, ad nauseam for all...
Expensive being me
One thing I learned in my early years as a woman is that, it's more expensive to be female than to be male.Men just don’t understand how much money it takes to be a woman. They don’t need to cut a...
Feel like a woman
I believe that the feeling of femininity or of actually being a woman is very real and that it even has a certain validity. While I realize that I can never REALLY know what it feels like to be a woma...
Hello girls!
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Man! I feel like a woman.
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Dressed to kill
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Sweet girl
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