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I've suffered from various forms of mental illness my whole life - this blog chronicles my past, present and future (?) as I attempt to understand and overcome my illnesses.
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Moving, Uprooting, Shifting, Flying and Going Slowly More Crazy (If that’s possible)
If you had told me 14 days ago that I would be sitting in an internet cafe in Alice Springs, pretty much in the dead red heart of Australia about to commence a new job and a whole new life - I would probably have guffawed one of those huge belly laug...
Overdoses, ER and those awesome gowns which my butt looks so cute in…
So yesterday in a fit of hypermanic energy I wrote one of the most random posts I’ve ever written. It seemed like such a good idea at the time, a lovely little post full of spot on observations and theories about why it is so hard to ask for he...
Why is asking for help so difficult?
Poached eggs on toast with the most ludicrously small portion of spinach I have ever seen. This portion of spinach was so minuscule you were seriously left wondering how eating it would ignite the muscles in your arms Popeye-style and give you the st...
Why alcohol, medication, self harm, bipolar, physical and mental health problems do not a good combination make!
So there I am on a Friday afternoon in Melbourne. Completely knackered. It’s been a long day already and it’s only about 2pm! I’ve been bothered by a nasty cold all week so my physical health is drained, and what with the myriad of ...
Garfield minus Garfield
Do you know how long it’s been since I last thought of Garfield? Well, actually it’s been about 3 and a half minutes… …but before that, well we’re talking at least 8 years, 3 months, 2 weeks and 4 3/4 days (approximate g...
Our Journey with Depression: Forum and Community
See that neat little play on the title there, blimey I’m a clever wee lad aren’t I :p Anyhow. I wanted to try and allow this blog to grow a little, expand it’s horizens and impacts and as well as offering the power of ‘comment...
My ‘life’ over the last few months
My life since deciding to cease writing the blog has been a roller coaster of ups and downs, as is often the case in the life of someone suffering from bipolar. My physical and mental health has been deteriorating, slowly, but I’m working hard ...
Setbacks, hurdles and the inevitable
I always suspected that when the affects of the jetlag began to wane I would suffer a…retrograde step…shall we say. So much happened to me in this city last year that few people understand why it is that I’ve come back here. Surely ...
Smiles, hugs and laughter (aka - the power of friendship in fighting depression)
So here we are, after nearly 6 months, over two hundred posts across three different web addresses, the end is here. So what better topic to write about than what is, in my opinion, the greatest treatment for depression. I should point out that all n...
Butts, streaking and fist fights (aka - being manic in Adelaide)
It’s October 2006… (If you have your copy of the album ‘Fallen’ handy, skip along to track 6 – it’s what I was listening to in a room lit with twenty four candles when I started writing the following rough scene breakdown for my novel ‘...
Words Cut Like a Knife (aka - the effects of emotional abuse)
“You’re useless,” “You never do anything right,” If I were to sit down with a friend, black eye on display, and tell them that my partner had been physically abusing me it would be hard for them to disagree. The evidence in all its black,...
The Revenge of Meadhbh, my imaginary friend (aka - hallucinations and their power)
March 2006, back when I was able to work, I worked as a manager for a backpacker hostel in Melbourne, which at the time I left it, was the best small hostel in the city. Granted I’m a little biased when I say that, but I put a helluva lot of work i...
Chocolates, pills and whips: Happy Easter Everyone :)
Another public holiday, another religious festival, another day of me feeling like crap. Unlike Christmas when it was just me feeling like crap because of some godforsaken mixed-episode, which was much the same as why my New Year was also destroyed...
‘It’s been a year since the earthquake destroyed me,’
It’s been nearly a year since I was sitting on a beach in Port Fairy burning myself with a flaming stick. A flame which ignited the breakdown and the destruction of everything I had been building for 28 and a 1/2 years. When I think back on th...
The Stigma of Mental Illness
Some people search for obscure humorous videos, others scour the web for pornographic material. Me? I seek out interesting and new articles on mental health related topics. This morning I found a wonderful article written called The Stigma of Mental ...
Mental Illness: What a difference a friend makes
One of the hardest things about suffering from mental illness is the damage that it can do to the relationships in your life. Family, lovers and friends are all dramatically affected in learning that you suffer from a mental illness. The stigmas surr...
I was once a Missing Person: Random Reflections of when I Ranaway
If you’re keeping up to date with the blog then you’ll be aware that I once ran away. There has been fleeting mentions of this particular period in my life in several of the posts. The most recent mention was in The Video Adventures of Ad...
My New Home in my Journey with Mental Illness
So this is my new home. As I don’t actually have any place I can call home in the “real world” it’s nice to have a place to call a home in cyberspace, especially with an address that I can call my “own”. My decisio...
The Video Adventures of Addy in Scotland #8: Inverness
Inverness, the site of so many memories and moments of my life was both a happy inducing tour-de-force and also a nostalgic kick in the groin. There are two videos of my time in Inverness, both rather reflective pieces, which draw this particular jou...
Suicide Helpline
I mentioned in my post yesterday that I phoned the suicide helpline……it is not the first time I have ever called them. The very first time I dialled this number was in April 2006 as I was having an incredibly bad day and didn’t know who else to...
"It'll be lonely this Christmas, without you..."
I've been trying for the last four days, been through countless versions, drafted so many different options and yet even now - three hours before the clock strikes midnight, I still can't get the words out.I know why - usually the Christmas spirit bi...
Addy's Faves: The Best of 'All that I am...'
I was thinking today, what if I were to compose a "best of" album from this blog? Which posts would I single out as my favourites to have the honour of appearing on a compilation of my favourite work?Well, this would be my selection: [in chronologica...
Loneliness: A Selection of Photographs
Some images I discovered from DeviantART depicting loneliness.--------------- Send me an Angel... by *BehindTheWrath on deviantART---------------Loneliness by ~TheTypeOfGirl on deviantART---------------Alone. by *rewston on deviantART---------------...
Loneliness: A Poem
I've been trying to write something about loneliness since this blog began, but my writing skills are just not up to the task to capture something which, if you've never felt it, you should be thankful for. Fortunately, a friend of mine does have tho...
Bi-Bi Love. Bi-Bi Happiness. Hello Loneliness. I think I'm gonna cry-yy.
C'mon now, you all know the lyrics...#Bi, bi love...bi, bi happiness...hello loneliness...I think I'm gonna cry-yyy#Because, hey, when all of your dreams completely dissipate into thin air in one day, what is there left to do but sing, even if it doe...
Loneliness
It frustrates the crap out of me when people who so obviously have friends & other such folks, start moaning, complaining and whining about being lonely.I'm not arrogant enough to assume that these people don't know what it feels like, but they s...
