Recent Posts Tagged With 'alone'

• And the Truth Comes Out...

  Posted on Sunday October 18th, 2009 at 05:46 in relationships, Romance, air force, rejection, alone, army dudes

  And he texted me this morning saying he was sorry for not calling me last night like he said he would...he called from work this afternoon and we talked for like 30 minutes. He said he would come downtown tonight to see me for a while. During this co...

• It's Over Between Hot Air Force Guy and I

  Posted on Friday September 25th, 2009 at 20:13 in relationships, air force, rejection, alone, army dudes

  I hate this.I just couldn't live up to his expectations I guess...He stopped up near the studios to have pizza with Sam and Kim and I...then he and I went out for drinks. He said he was not ready to commit. (ie: call us boyfriend and girlfriend)...we...

• Another Another Drunken email to Josh...I just couldn't help myself...

  Posted on Friday July 17th, 2009 at 23:29 in art, relationships, alcohol, rejected, alone

  This was inspired by a conversation I had with Sam and some friends at a bar tonight...Sam said Josh seemed to think I had a nice ass and that maybe he would sleep wth me when he came back to town...he just might not have a long term relationship wit...

• Perhaps This Blog Has Come to a Standstill...

  Posted on Sunday June 21st, 2009 at 13:29 in relationships, MEN, rejection, alone

  At least for now. I have no men in my life currently, so there is not really much to say at the moment. I will occasionally reminisce though I suppose...I never did get into all the Alex stories. Here is what I have to say on the status of all the me...

• Josh is Back For the Week

  Posted on Sunday May 24th, 2009 at 14:36 in relationships, Romance, artists, rejection, rejected, alone

  His new lease apparently starts June first, so he'll be here for a while. He hasn't had a conversation with me yet specifically, but I was involved in a group discussion with him. When he spoke he was looking more at Beth than at me. I think he wants...

• Well This Makes Me Feel a Little Better...

  Posted on Saturday May 23rd, 2009 at 21:51 in relationships, Romance, rejection, rejected, alone

  I got a little more info from Kim last night, on that conversation she had with Josh. Apparently he said something to the effect of: he uses women, and doesnt' want to do that to me :D...wow...My immediate thought was "wow! He must kind of like me"!....

• Yes, I most Likely Made an Ass out of Myself...

  Posted on Thursday May 7th, 2009 at 23:09 in relationships, depressed, sad, rejection, rejected, alone

  Based on what David said to Josh, and also what I said (in my tipsy state) he obviously knows how I feel. And he has not come on to me in any way...In fact the flirting may have gone down a little, and he is busy spending time with friends when he is...

• And Oddly enough..there is no wierdness..

  Posted on Wednesday May 6th, 2009 at 23:03 in relationships, Romance, sad, rejection, rejected, alone

  I spoke and flirted with Josh today as if nothing was abnormal or had changed...He didnt' comment on what David or I had said under the "influence" so to speak. Josh and I interacted as normal...I can't help but wonder "what if"?...what if he was not...

• Damn! I think I blew it with Josh...

  Posted on Wednesday April 29th, 2009 at 21:06 in relationships, rejection, rejected, alone

  He had the opportunity tonight to hit on me, but he did not :(...we were at the studios late tonight (late for me anyway)...I stayed until 8:30 PM. We were the only ones there. I got my tax return and said I was going to get some alcohol to celebrate...

• Today's Flirtations With Josh

  Posted on Monday April 27th, 2009 at 22:31 in relationships, Romance, flirting, alone

  Mmm....I really want to do this man before he leaves for another state....the good news is, he's still within driving distance--about 10 hours away. so if I leave at 8 AM, I can be where he is at 6 PM :)I want him to stay, but I don't think he will c...

• I am going to die Old and ALONE...

  Posted on Thursday April 16th, 2009 at 22:05 in relationships, Romance, you tube, dawson's creek, rejected, alone

  sorry, I hope this doesn't sound completely melodramatic, but this is how I really feel. I'm getting a bit long in the tooth here-- 31 now. Getting a bit of gray hair, and getting a few wrinkles. I also have no career, no money, and nothing to offer ...

• The Passion, Part 2

  Posted on Thursday April 2nd, 2009 at 00:58 in relationships, adultery, rejection, affairs, alone

  And in advance, forgive me if I forget anything, and most likely I will...I recall intense flirting, inuendo, and the condom conversatoin. I recall Alex sitting in my studio (must have been September) and we had discussions pertaining to an affair. I...

• Another Randezvous with Sam...

  Posted on Wednesday March 25th, 2009 at 22:41 in relationships, rejected, affairs, alone

  Yup, it happened. And I feel kind of "odd" about it. I think it's because I am generally not the type who sleeps with people I don't have a deep connection with. Of course there have been a couple-- I am single and in my 30's. But I'm at the age wher...

• Alex Finally Showed up Today....

  Posted on Thursday March 19th, 2009 at 21:16 in relationships, depression, adultery, rejected, affairs, alone

  (after like 2 months)...and then of course disappeared (asshole). Here's what happened:I walked up the stairs at our studios and noticed Alex's door was open. I went into my studio for a few minutes and then I came back out because I had to wash some...

• It Has Been Confirmed-- the Chick in the Nudie Photo IS the Horseface!!!!

  Posted on Friday February 20th, 2009 at 22:09 in photo, relationships, adultery, rejection, affairs, alone

  Meh....Now why and the hell would you want to show your nude ass body for the whole world to see. Can anyone explain this to me??? Unless you are totally dumb, have no shame, or want to fuck over the man who jilted you???The positive ID comes from my...

• Oh my God...I want To Slit My Fucking Wrists...

  Posted on Saturday February 14th, 2009 at 23:10 in relationships, depression, adultery, suicidal, depressed, sad, rejection, rejected, affairs, alone

  Seriously, I am so fucking depressed. No fears though cyber space people-- I will not resort to such desperate measures over this fucking asshole. I admit, I am rather depressed though. (if you recall, the sex was SO good)...FUCKER...So here's what h...

• The Horseface was Back!!!!

  Posted on Wednesday February 11th, 2009 at 22:33 in relationships, adultery, sad, rejected, affairs, alone

  But was Alex? Of this I am not sure. But I do know "she" was up at the studios.I was working on a painting late tonight, and when I was done I decided to go over and stare in his studio. (He is in the opposite wing from me)-- same floor and all, but ...

• Back Home and No Sign of Alex

  Posted on Monday February 2nd, 2009 at 22:33 in relationships, adultery, rejection, affairs, alone

  My vacation is over, and I am now back home. I have been to my studio the last two days, and Alex is nowhere to be seen. Big surprise there...so much for that burger he wanted to take me out for.When you really want to see someone or spend time with ...

• 2 months of Nothing

  Posted on Wednesday January 14th, 2009 at 18:58 in adultery, pissed off, rejected, affairs, alone, ignoring, jilted

  Yeah, the first week or two I had hope. It is clear it is OVER. We don't even talk to each other. I haven't seen him with the horseface chic in a while, but that is probably because she moved. (A mutual friend said she was moving to another state thi...

• He was seen with Horse Face Again..

  Posted on Friday December 19th, 2008 at 22:28 in relationships, adultery, rejection, affairs, alone, fucked over

  So I saw him sitting at a table "fondling" his cell phone late this afternoon. Not in his studio, but more out in the open. I left briefly, I had a massage appointment to help with my chronic pain problems. When I got back one of the other artists in...

• I should have Paid attention to my first Instinct..

  Posted on Thursday December 18th, 2008 at 23:42 in relationships, depression, adultery, cheating, depressed, rejection, affairs, alone

  He is a player. I suspected that for the past 6 months or so...Just the way I saw him flirting and interacting with girls.. .One girl in particular. "Horse face" as I call her. I have seen him with her over and over... The girl who was laughing with ...

• Just when I thought it Couldn't get any worse...

  Posted on Sunday December 14th, 2008 at 09:26 in relationships, adultery, rejection, affairs, alone

  So Alex has been ignoring me since that night i called him-- like 3 weeks ago. To make matters worse my boyfriend and I are breaking up (I dumped him because of his drinking and his manipulative, scary personality)..Oh yeah...and to make matters EVEN...

• Sorry I deleted all my posts

  Posted on Friday December 5th, 2008 at 00:15 in relationships, depressed, rejection, affairs, alone

  I thought it might be best given my current situation...my boyfriend and I are on the verge of breaking up...and "Alex" is ignoring me anyway.Apparently I was just a good fuck, and if I have "real life" problems then I am an inconvenience. Asshole......

• Do you ever "Long" for people?

  Posted on Thursday November 13th, 2008 at 21:26 in relationships, depression, adultery, confused, rejection, alone, affair, extra marital affair

  This question is based on a brief discussion I had with "Alex" last week. It came up in the context of some conversation we were having....He said he would be perfectly content to be alone the rest of his life. He doesn't long for people. So I said, ...

• What ???...and for Further Confusion...

  Posted on Wednesday November 5th, 2008 at 00:32 in relationships, attraction, rejection, alone, affair, extra marital affair

  So here's the summary with this guy. We have been talking/flirting for at last 6 months. We finally had sex...and now he "occasionally" chats with me...we were supposed to "get together" today, whatever that means...but we didn't..(the sex only happe...

• I am Extremely Attracted to This Man..

  Posted on Sunday November 2nd, 2008 at 23:52 in relationships, rejection, alone, affair, extra marital affair

  Unfortuntely he has been with the same woman for years. They aren't married, but they might as well be. (they own a home together and everything)...I can't recall the last time I was so overwhelmingly attracted to somebody. I don't know how he feel...

• Against My Better Judgement

  Posted on Friday October 31st, 2008 at 01:42 in relationships, rejection, alone, affair, extra marital affair

  I did it anyway. This is ulike me. I am the girl who did not get her first french kiss until age 17. I did not have sex until I was 23. And now I had sex with a man in a long term (8 year relationship).I do feel slightly guilty about this. Sometimes ...

• My Affair Did Not Work

  Posted on Friday October 31st, 2008 at 01:20 in relationships, depression, Virginity, rejection, alone

  I kind of started an extra marital affair. Even though neither of us is married-- we're just both in long term realtionships.It lasted 2 makeout sessions and one wonderful round of sex. I don't have anyone to talk about this to so I thought I would w...