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Still Kissing Frogs
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What can I say? You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince. I'm a freelance artist who copes with mental illness and is still kissing those frogs.
Recent Posts
Lost
I really have no words for the pain in me. It's crushing, blinding, suffocating, sneaky and sudden, black as ink, loud as thunder and bright as lightening. It's inside my soul and outside my skin. It lives in my brain but controls my feet. I cannot s...
Hello, Depression
So there's something the matter with my heart. I don't remember the name of it, but apparently my heart keeps firing between irregular beats. Since this is Not Good, I will probably have to see a cardiologist in the near future. I was supposed to go ...
Goodbye Mania
Me, curled up on K's couch with a teddy bear wrapped in my arms: "I wish I was dead."K, flopping down next to me on the couch. "Well, interestingly enough, that's the third time I've heard that this hour."Me: "I wanna be more deader than she does!"K:...
Musical Pills
Saw the pdoc today. Back off the Abilify, onto Risperdal. I'm still in a mixed state, she says. Well, yeah, since I live with myself I kinda knew that.I've been very sad. I mean, VERY SAD. The sort of sadness where you stand at a window and stare out...
White Elephants
Chad is dead.I cannot make it make sense. I cannot believe it.But he's dead.HOW? HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?I am aimless, I am restless, I can't stop moving. And the problem is not the Abilify. The problem is my fucked up brain, which is getting progressive...
There Are No Words
Somewhere in the state last night--no one knows quite where--there was a party. And a young man from church went to it and died. How, again, we don't know.He and I weren't buddies. We weren't even close. But I've known him since I moved down here. I ...

