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I'm a recovering alcoholic and crystal meth addict. I have recovered by taking the steps suggested in Alcoholics Anonymous. By taking a few simple steps I have found a new and better life and a relationship with my Creator and I write about that he
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Thin Again
I’ve always been a skinny person. Before my addiction to crystal meth the most I ever in my life weighed was 180 pounds. I’m also 6′4″ so while 180 isn’t exactly underweight it is only a 32″ waist. Call it na...
Day 5 (plus 1000)
I can’t believe it. Day 1000 passed without my noticing it. I was in Las Vegas at the time visiting my mom and dad. I spent the day hanging out with them, my great-uncle and his new wife and daughter, my aunt and two of my cousins. Watched ...
Day 5 (plus 1000)
I can’t believe it. Day 1000 passed without my noticing it. I was in Las Vegas at the time visiting my mom and dad. I spent the day hanging out with them, my great-uncle and his new wife and daughter, my aunt and two of my cousins. Watched ...
9/11
On this day, eight years ago, I was in jail awaiting trial on felony drug possession charges. I was one of a handful of people awake in my dorm watching television. I called my mom to tell her the world was coming to an end. That’s what i...
9/11
On this day, eight years ago, I was in jail awaiting trial on felony drug possession charges. I was one of a handful of people awake in my dorm watching television. I called my mom to tell her the world was coming to an end. That’s what i...
In His Night
I learned a little while ago that another person I know in the rooms successfully escaped feeling anything ever again. It happens more often than I’m comfortable with; people try to get sober and can’t and then intentionally or unintent...
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My New Girlfriend
Losing Gracie was seriously the saddest thing I’ve been through in forever. I found myself crying for a couple of days. I kept thinking I saw her. A dear friend kept suggesting that I get a new cat right away. You need a buddy, he’...
Perverse Irony
c.a. Marks is right about needing to take some time. I think I’d vote for a day or two or three, though. I wish it was later in the year and I could go up to the lake. I haven’t been there in a couple of years. It’s a nice p...
A Million Miracles
I feel kind of petty for making a fuss over my upcoming AA birthday. Two years is nothing. I went Saturday to the celebration of someone’s quinquagenary in recovery. Fifty years is a whole lot of “one day at a time”. If you&...
Hiding My Agenda
One of the things that became very clear to me over the holidays was the fact that I have hopes for particular outcomes, yet I don’t communicate those hopes in a way that is effective at soliciting participation from my friends. Hence the New...
For unto you is born this day in the City of Iowa (City)
The much hoped for daughter/neice/granddaughter who was due on Christmas Eve has arrived fashionably late. And we couldn’t be happier. My sister has 2 boys already so I think she was ready for the girl our late grandmother had predicted. ...
I have the right to
Though it was written as an amendment to the Al-Anon bill of rights, they are all such good and sensible ideas that they could be embrased by anyone in recovery. An excerpt: 14. I have the right to say ‘I don’t know’. 15. I have the...
Day 666 off crystal meth - “Well. Who could be responsible for that?”
Remember when that freak show in Australia called practically every recovery blogger on the internet, “Agents of Satan”? Yeah, well, agent of Satan, reporting for duty. I was thinking about some of the things I’ve learned and how fa...
Ghost Story
I got the weirdest email today. From the imaginary, future ex-husband. And it’s apparantly set up on some sort of automated system that will continue sending me this notification forever. I can spam it of course, or change my email, but I m...
Hunt and Ye Shall Find - The surprising results of the MANHUNT experiment
By day 2 of the MANHUNT experiment I was clear that it wasn’t meant to be part of my path. I’d gotten the random hookup out of the way and found that incredibly lacking, and I’d played email tag with a couple of guys that I really d...
IN-N-OUT. N-IN.
He’s back in. That’s good. My sponsor asked what I would have wanted someone to do when I went out. That answer was easy. I was desperate to know that someone cared. That anyone cared. I know now that they did, but everyone I knew simply...
Tears dry on their own.
Not to say that I’ve cried. I haven’t. I won’t. That kind of emotional attachment just isn’t there. All that was there was the recognition of the kinds of qualities that might make me willing to invest myself further. But appa...
