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In the closing month of 1982 my father was picked up, poisoned, strangled, murdered, dismembered and boiled by British serial killer Dennis Nilsen.

Come across to my blog to read full history...

Best Wishes, Shane.

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  1. Myheroinhead
    Due to complete & utter boredom I'm going to have a conversation with myself... hope no-one minds?

    heroinhead... any problem with that?
    1. Myheroinhead
      Not if I can help it... there's too much life to live! I'm a 4 hours a night man... sleeping NOT f*@king!
    2. Myheroinhead
      It's another day... and if I make a comment we'll get the question back on the list... clever, hey?
    3. ColBury
      Hi Shane,

      Fascinating stuff this. Just nosied at your blog. What a life you've had. I take it your creativity is a necessary outlet for you.
      I must say I'm surprised how well you come across considering how destructive heroin is. Have you / are you trying to get off it?

      Regards,
      Col
  2. Myheroinhead
    No problem! i'd be glad of the company...

    What would you like to talk about? High-brow, Low-brow or know-how?
    1. Myheroinhead
      Let's start with low-brow. I think that will suit you better. Whats all his nonsense about your father, strangulations and mass-murder? Do you really think anyone will swallow that?
    2. Myheroinhead
      Hmmmm... maybe you're right. Do you think I should exagerrate (soup it up a little)? & should I have publicized my post in "Shameless Blog Promotion"?
    3. Myheroinhead
      Well, you're certainly "shameless" - you've proved that. Maybe you should add a couple of car chases and a love object into the story... apparently that's the usual format for such things. I dont know, it's just a suggestion.
    4. Myheroinhead
      i'll think it over.. great suggestions! Maybe we can even add a touch of the bizarre. How about this:

      My father survives 'his murder' and falls in love with 'his killer'? that would be something, hey? Maybe Disney could be interested i this.
    5. Myheroinhead
      Sounds good... almost something I could have said myself! Anyway, the potatoes are boiling so I must go... I'll see at around 6 for dinner. take care & for Christ sake... BE CAREFUL!!! x
    6. Myheroinhead
      Be careful?! who are you, my doctor? I'm certainly not taking your advice!!

      See you at6... happy cooking!
    7. Myheroinhead
      I was just wishing you well... are you offended when someone shows emotion towards you? there's a name for that?
    8. Myheroinhead
      There's also a name for people who talk to themselves! have you ever considered professional help?
    9. Myheroinhead
      It's almost 7 o'clock... where the f*@k are you?
    10. Myheroinhead
      I'm coming... way-layed & delayed... heat the oven, I'll be there soon!
    11. Myheroinhead
      Heroinhead, it"s late now... your dinners in the dog! Sweetdreams, wherever you may lay your weary head...x
    12. Myheroinhead
      I can only apologise.... but in a life of apologies what does it mean?

      It's 5.24... don't you ever sleep?
    13. Myheroinhead
      I've already that one, but I think I posted it in the wrong place and messed the thread up!!! Jesus, all my hard work gone to waste.. nevermind, hey.
  3. crpitt
    Sorry to interrupt, most folks on here (the noisy ones) are probably sleeping now.

    I am off to do my obligatory miles in a lazy arsed attempt at getting fit, but will be back later.

    Continue conversation.
    1. Myheroinhead
      Thank you... enjoy the work out.

      I've a great diet for the lazy:

      If you're awake for 18 hrs per day: Every 10 minutes do 3 sit-ups, and every hour do 2 minute of running on the spot. That will make 300+ sit-ups a day & 36 minutes of running. Exercise is just mathematics.

      take care, Shane
  4. melindaville
    That was a great piece, myheroinhead. I know you are new here and there's a discussion feature called 'Shameless Blog Promotion' and this might have been a good one to put out there.

    You can also create a broadcast (go to your dashboard and you will see a tab called 'broadcasts' and if you click on that, it will take you to all the recent ones--look to the right of the screen to see 'create a new broadcast'). This sends out a broadcast that you have a new post to all your friends.

    I really enjoyed that piece!

    Melinda
    1. Myheroinhead
      Yeah, wih my conversation with myself I asked should I have posted it in the "Shameless" section... all I got i reply as an insult!
    2. melindaville
      LOL! Ha ha ha. I love your sense of humor--and who says junkies are a bore? ha ha ha.
    3. Myheroinhead
      Who says junkies are a bore?? Their lovers!
  5. aningeniousname
    Was just reading your blog, very interesting stuff.
    Have you read the book Killing for company and if so what are your thoughts on it.
    1. melindaville
      I just got that book from Amazon. I have a weird (and sick, I know) fascination with serial killers. But I have studied aggression and violence in my research so it all falls in line with that!
    2. aningeniousname
      You will "enjoy" it, it's a fascinating book.
    3. Myheroinhead
      Yes, it the best book on the subject... I think it's one of the great books on serial killers. It's not the normal run-of-the-mill ultra tabloid trash.

      My mother doesn't like the book... but you can understand that.
    4. aningeniousname
      How old were you when your father was killed?
    5. Myheroinhead
      I was 7. I don't really remember too much from the time... my first outstanding memory was the scream of my mother when she was informed by the police.
    6. aningeniousname
      What are your feelings towards Nilsen? It must be quite strange because he has sort of forced an unwanted connection between you.
    7. Myheroinhead
      My feelings on Nilsen? I hold no ill will towards him... he has problems like many of us do. I do not like to see people incarcerated. His release would hurt my mother terribly - so I am torn between these two things. Also, we have to consider if Nilsen is able to repeat his crimes? He has served his 25 year sentence and so he is able to be released. His fate hangs with the courts and politicians. I've exchanged letters with him, but stopped through fear that my mother would find out. She's been through enough..
    8. aningeniousname
      Was it you or him that initiated the contact? Did he express any remorse to you?
      From what I have read of him he seems to be a very intelligent, but extremely vain, man that is as puzzled by his crimes as we are.
      I don't think they will ever let him out and to tell you the truth I don't think he should be let out.
    9. Myheroinhead
      I initiated contact. He had been a part of my life and thoughts for so long that I wanted to have some contact.

      Yes, he is very intellligent, but I think the vanity is a myth that runs throughout the press and media to knock him a little. At least I never got that impression from him... one does leave Killing for Company with that impression though.

      Yes he apologised, but I let him know that wasn't why I sought him. I wasn't hunting his remorse... it means nothing really.

      I agree with you, he will never be released.
    10. aningeniousname
      I can see why you would want contact with him. He must have loomed over your life like a huge black shadow. Especially with the way the media sensationalise these killers as some sort of super human villains, when in reality they are very sad and twisted little men.
      Was it cathartic for you? Did it sort of exorcise him from your day to day thoughts?
    11. Myheroinhead
      Cathartic... it wasn't really what I was looking for. I don't break life down into events or tragedies that need resolving. The history with Nilsen was one of the many events that have gone into making my life. My reason for contacting him was the same as how I would contact someone that is following my blog and has interested me. My thoughts are very complicated on this matter and it is very difficult to give a comprehensible explanation in a comment. Excuse me.
  6. fruitcake
    I must say I really enjoyed the conversation you had here with yourself (so much so that I'm going to check out your blog now ).
    1. Myheroinhead
      Thank you fruitcake... though the blogs not a joke... unfortunately!;)
    2. fruitcake
      You're welcome and I figured as much. I took a peek and loved your blog (although sorry to hear all the crap you've been through!).
    3. Myheroinhead
      Fruitcake, it's just my life... it unravelled that way. Thank you for visiting... I'm going to repay the compliment...

      I'll get back to you soon. Shane
  7. Stillthinking
    I just visited your blog and read your entry about your father. Completely horrifying.

    My father is in prison for life for three counts of murder. He went to prison when I was eight. It destroyed my mother who never really recovered from it. It destroyed me and set me up for a lifetime of self-hatred.

    I don't have a heroin addiction, but I have been struggling with bulimia and food addiction for over 15 years. Believe me when I tell you that my demons (while very different from yours) come from the same place.
    1. Myheroinhead
      StillThinking, you're right...& to be a heroin addict is in no way compulsory to be a part of my blog. I am more touched by the readers who are not addicts or users as they are there for reasons outside of drugs. Pure drug discussions get very tedious after a while.

      Take care, Shane.
  8. wagerwitch
    What interesting reading... And I haven't even hit your blog yet. LOLOLOLOLOL!

    Cool - keep it up - and I'll stop by for a moment - but do me a favor ---get more than FOUR hours - grab some Ambien or something.

    LOL!

    Have a great writing fest!

    WagerWitch
    1. Myheroinhead
      Thank you WW, unfortunately my site isn't so light-hearted, though I'll change that soon!

      Glad I amused you... most people just tell me to stop being so childish.
    2. ColBury
      Hi all,
      My reply is high up at the start of the discussion as I'm also new to this and replied in the wrong place!
      Regards,
      Col

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