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indirect nature of when
inside candy | October 10th 2008 by Candy Tothill
What held us together before lids of grass closed your eyes? The space between the parts you filled and being part of larger things feels sharp like scissors, cold to skin and mirrors cry for hair to hide behind. But death is incomplete, I said refu read more
one last look
inside candy | July 23rd 2008 by Candy Tothill
Some nights, before the sun dissolves your shapeless fear of loneliness, you linger loosely on the people that used to pass your lips so easily. Their faces are still pressed to yours in scrapbooks, pressed to yours with those promising smiles and t read more
curtain call
inside candy | March 30th 2008 by Candy Tothill
This house has watched the life fall out of us. It has contained our secret selves, hidden our private misery, dropped its curtains against the sickening light. It has knelt at the feet of hanging heads when death had penetrated our read more
listening, still
inside candy | February 19th 2008 by Candy Tothill
to Mel, The Moose 23 April 1959 to 18 February 1999 The days have fallen in numbers since you last sang into a smoky room; since the carpet gave beneath your tread; since the house felt full of your presence. Not one of them has dawned without read more
on suicide
inside candy | December 11th 2007 by Candy Tothill
I have thought about it deeply - like the things one considers: buying a car, moving house. It has been under consideration within tailored trousers and silver in the jewel box. It is not beneath me. It hangs from curtains, sometimes leak read more
always you die
inside candy | December 5th 2007 by Candy Tothill
i. To song your funeral concludes. Mother falls to kneel at your coffin as if it is you. Rain crawls to earth where people are swift to return to the safety of their own familiar mundane. Flowers assault my nostrils. Gag reflex in the home where you read more
losing people, an excerpt
inside candy | November 24th 2007 by Candy Tothill
Sitting in the yard under the shade of an oak tree at the top of our garden, I try to relax. I have breathed and paced. I have rearranged furniture, folded laundry and breathed and paced some more. The contractions are tightening mo read more
interpreting candy-isms
inside candy | September 2nd 2007 by Candy Tothill
Kick off your shoes, put your feet up and light a smoke. The intricate web of acronyms that have defined and continue to comprise my existence are listed here to help you decide whether you're brave enough to be inside candy. BAG: Being A Girl For m read more
fear of falling
inside candy | August 28th 2007 by Candy Tothill
I'm told that I deserve someone who calls me beautiful instead of hot. Apparently I need a man who will call back after I hang up. People often give me advice about this. I don't understand why I'm perceived to be difficult. I only hang up when I'm l read more
oh happy day
inside candy | August 22nd 2007 by Candy Tothill
Yesterday I signed a contract with my publisher (how cool does that sound?!). My book, Losing People, will hit the shelves soon. Visit "Inside Candy" for the rest of this piece of exceptional fabulousness. read more
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