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- December 24th, 2009
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Holiday Break
I'll be taking a holiday break from posting until after the New Year.Thanks to all my readers for all you've gifted me this year! I wish you happiness and peace this holiday season!A girl. Exploring…
- December 22nd, 2009
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DBSA for the Holidays
As the holidays approach, many are thinking about holiday traveling and last-minute Christmas presents. However, those with depression are faced with figuring out one day at a time how to get through…
- December 21st, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
New Year\'s is Around the Corner
I'm trying to make it through the holidays. I just need to make it past New Year's then I'll attempt to get off my antidepressant. I keep thinking of my dad and how much I'll miss his visit this yea…
- December 16th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
How to Beat the Holidays
The holidays can be a difficult time. All the stress of finding the perfect present, enduring larger crowds than normal, spending time with loved ones are just some of the stressors tied into the hol…
- December 15th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
I Feel It All
I'll never go so far as to say that Bipolar is a blessing, but it's not as awful as I first imagined it to be.Bipolar allows me to feel it all. All my feelings are intensified. I live life feeling a…
- December 14th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Guest Blogger | Angela Peterson\'s How to Cope When a Loved One Has Bipolar Disorder
Disease is not good in any form, and when it’s mental illness that we’re talking about, it gets worse because we have no way to know exactly what is going on and if things will ever get back to…
- December 11th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Wishes for the New Year
Today's my dad's birthday. I'm not sure if words are enough to express how I feel. I cried my tears yesterday. I'm finally resolved that he's dead and isn't coming back. I wish I could talk to him…
- December 9th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Depression Equals Weight Gain
I've gained 20 lbs since September. I attribute it to my antidepressant and being depressed. What's one to do? Stay thin and become insane or get fat and be sane?My weight gain is really bothering…
- December 8th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Letters to Dad
I received a package in the mail from my stepmother. It contained some old letters and cards that my father kept throughout the years. I was surprised that my father was so sentimental and kept them…
- December 7th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
I\'m not dead, afterall
It was my brother's birthday yesterday. I sent him a text telling him how much we loved him and how we wished him a day of happiness. He texted back and reminded me how much I miss my father. I di…
- December 2nd, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Glass
We are breakable. Does it make us fragile? Do the cracks in our souls mean we're going to shatter at any second?I think about how my Bipolar makes me feel like my web is fragile. Sanity is a push a…
- December 1st, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Going Over the Side
A month and a half ago I was put on an antidepressant--Pristiq. It's worked well. A little too well. Last night I went to bed at 9pm and I'm now awake at 1:30. I tried taking Xanax to calm me down…
- November 30th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
I\'m a Dreamer
If you can dream it you can do it. I dream that one day I will be free of my overwhelming mood swings. I take my medications as prescribed. I often feel like my life is in limbo. When will the mo…
- November 25th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Joy
I have a wide smile plastered across my face. It aches because I'm smiling so much, but in a good way. My husband is playing the new electric guitar that I bought him for Christmas. My girls are da…
- November 24th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Keeping the Faith
The hole in my chest is still there, but it's getting smaller. I still miss my father desperately---regardless of my anger at him lying to me.The antidepressants haven't taken away the pain. It's st…
- November 21st, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Monsters
I saw New Moon this weekend. Bella undergoes a depression when her boyfriend leaves her. It reminded me of myself. She sat like a zombie in front of her window for months, thinking of her situatio…
- November 20th, 2009
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Pfizer Receives FDA Approval For Geodon® For The Adjunctive Maintenance Treatment Of Bipolar Disorder
I was glad to find this info on the combination of Geodon and Lithium since that's my med cocktail. Read on to find out more information:Pfizer today announced that the U.S. Food and Drug Administrat…
- November 18th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Bipolar and Medical Marijuana
Bobby Brown lied to his doctor and told him that he was Bipolar so he could get Medical Marijuana. Do most people lie about this disorder to get it,too?I find this to be ludicrous. I think that Bobb…
- November 17th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
He lied to me
It's 3:49 am and I can't sleep. I went to bed really early last night because of my cold. You would think that I'd sleep longer because of my cold, but no. Instead I start thinking of everything I…
- November 16th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
A Court for the Mentally Ill
Colorado is initializing a new Mental Health Court to help keep up with mentally ill inmates. According to the Denver Post:The need for such a court is compelling in both human and fiscal terms: •…
- November 13th, 2009
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Don\'t Stop Believing
I've been sick this week with ear infections and a wheezing cough. I went to see my doctor. He wanted to put me on steroids, but said that might influence my sleeping patterns and send me into mania…
- November 11th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Living Like You\'re Dying
Kris Allen has a new song out and it reminded me that I need to live like I'm dying. I need to treasure each moment of my life instead of just trying to get through the day. Some days that's difficu…
- November 10th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Harmful Actions
I pull my hair and claw my skin when I feel extremely anxious. It usually comes on when I feel so out of control that I need to feel that I'm in control again. It's a fight or flight response that I…
- November 9th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Conversations with my 21 year old self
I say this in love: Be honest with yourself and your psychiatrist. When she asks if you hear voices or see things, be honest. Don't worry she'll think that you're crazy. That's the least of your pr…
- November 6th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Recovery: Sleep Patterns
I'm typing on my brand new computer! It's beautiful, shiny and has great colors. This web page looks nicer on it, too. It has a webcam on it. I can't wait to use it! Stay tuned for some video from…
- November 5th, 2009
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Out and About
I ran errands yesterday. A feat that hasn't been accomplished in a long time. It felt good to get out of the house and the sun on my skin felt nice. I managed to take my daughter to her speech ther…
- November 4th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
A Dark Place
I cradled my dad's boots in my hands. As I stroked the leather I began to cry in earnest. I was unable to let go of the tears that wracked my body. I curled up on my bed.I began to think about my c…
- October 29th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Thank you, Psych Central!
My blog is one of the Top Ten Bipolar Blogs! I'm honored and touched that my blog has touched so many of you. I work really hard to make my blog relevant and I'm so happy that it's been rewarded.Be…
- October 28th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Why Do You Blog?
I got interviewed yesterday for Cross Currents, the Journal of Addiction and Mental Health about why I blog.It was an interesting interview and it opened my eyes. Apparently I blog because it helps m…
- October 27th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Bipolar Life Before Diagnosis
When I was thirteen I became very depressed. I wrote in my journal a lot and I sat in my closet so nobody in the house would hear me cry. I've always been a loud crier. Tears didn't merely slide do…
- October 26th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Passion Builds Community
I've lost my zest for life, but rather than whine about it, I'm going to do something about it. Yes, I'm still in chains of depression, but that doesn't mean that I can't resist. I'm going to start bl…
- October 22nd, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Excerpt from Reaching for Sanity, Chapter One
Today I'm sharing with you an excerpt from my book, Reaching for Sanity. I hope you like it. One I was anxious, clawing at my skin, crying and breathing irregularly. I was having suicidal thought…
- October 21st, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Taking Charge
Normally, I'm against the idea of antidepressants for Bipolars, but my nurse practitioner convinced me that it would be a good idea to just to use them to get over the hump of my depression. If I had…
- October 19th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Therapy: Grieving
I had my first therapy appointment since my father died. I had to tell her what happened and relive that awful day that my father died. It was incredibly painful opening up that wound. I spent the…
- October 14th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Birthday Blues
It's my birthday today. I should feel happy, but I don't. Today will be a difficult day. I won't be hearing from my father today.My family has a luncheon planned for me and a dinner with cake. Tha…
- October 12th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Depression Visits Again
Much thanks to HealthyPlace.com and an anonymous donor for donating money for my Walk for NAMI this weekend. To find out more visit Super Bipolar Brain and Body.I walked this weekend even though I vi…
- October 8th, 2009
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Walking for NAMI this weekend
Did anyone see the episode on Schizophrenia this week on Oprah? It was about a schizophrenic seven year old and how her parents deal with her disorder. It was so hard to watch. I feel for her paren…
- October 5th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Sad and Angry
I haven't been posting much here. I feel kind of alone right now. There's not much to talk about. I've just been trying to make it through the day. I'm not exactly still crying for my dad. I have…
- September 21st, 2009
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Join in my Walk for NAMI
I am writing you today to tell you about an upcoming event that I am participating in that is both very important and very exciting to me. It is NAMIWalks for the Mind of America, NAMI's signature wa…
- September 20th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Dying isn't just about dying
I'm still trekkin' along. My grieving has taken a back seat to all the legal ramifications of my father's death. There's so much to take care of: taxes, creditors, money, letting people know of his…
- September 9th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Giving Yourself Permission to Grieve When You Have Bipolar
When you have bipolar disorder how do you give yourself permission to grieve without totally losing it?This is the dilemma I'm faced with now. I don't want to cry because I'm worried that my bipolar…
- September 7th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
The Robe
I think of my father almost constantly these days. I miss him terribly. I think about the memories I have of him and I hear his voice in my head.I don't think I'm going crazy. I think that this is…
- September 2nd, 2009
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I Loved My Father
My father passed away on Wednesday, August 26, 2009 of Septic Shock (infection of the entire body) due to complications from the surgery he had to remove the tumor that had grown from his pancreas int…
- August 24th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Follow Me at Super Bipolar Brain & Body
I've recently been asked to contribute at a new online blog called Super Bipolar Brain & Body. It features me using the Brain Muscle Workout to help my Bipolar Disorder. I invite you to follow m…
- August 19th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Guest Blogger | Andrea Brooks' Beating Depression through the Power of Journaling
We've all been there: That place where life gets to be too much to handle, we are stretched so thin that daily tasks become almost impossible and the smiles on our faces are forced. In order to cop…
- August 14th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Is anyone else tired on Lithium?
I had a hard week. I got out of bed to do the essentials and then I went back to bed. I was so very, very tired. I got off my Geodon a couple of months ago because the shakes were hard to handle. I…
- August 12th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Guest Blogger | Jemma Smith's Bipolar Disorder and Life Insurance Headaches
Bipolar Disorder is an illness that results in severe changes to a person’s mood. These vary between manic episodes of high energy to lows typified by depression. The exact causes are not yet fu…
- August 10th, 2009
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Listen to Your Bliss!
I was surfing channels a few nights ago as I watched television and came across some really invaluable motivation for my life. Dr. Wayne Dyer wrote a book entitled Excuses Begone and he has some wort…
- August 6th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Lonely in Bipolar
I am alone. At least, I feel alone. And, it's my own fault. I feel lonely in my own family and I shouldn't feel that way. This loneliness is self-inflicted. I push people away. I don't want anyo…
- August 5th, 2009
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BipolarChica has posted a new entry on: Raw Writing for the Real World of Bipolar
Guest Blogger | Psychotherapy Brown Bag's Michael Anestis' I think I have Bipolar...Now what?
If you think that you or somebody you care about might have bipolar disorder, life is likely overwhelming at the moment as you consider numerous questions. What help is available? Who do I talk to? Ho…
