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- December 21st, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
I Hate Confrontation
I hate confrontation, but I’m afraid I find myself in a position where I have to have one. With my boss. My paycheck bounced. I’m trying to save up some money so that I can declare bankr…
- December 13th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Winter Night
My sobriety anniversary is very important to me and it’s coming up here soon, but it doesn’t quite move me the same way December 13th does. December 13th, today, happens also to be my bi…
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SemiCharmed is celebrating their birthday today!
- December 7th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Grabbing Ahold
“I wish I was smarter. I wish I was stronger.” Patty Griffin It brings me not comfort to know that I’m in a position I’ve been in before; hopeless, out of answers, hurti…
- December 3rd, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Exit Strategy
I promised not to go try to buy a tank of carbon monoxide and they promised not to make me go to the hospital yet. So that’s good.
- November 18th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
- November 17th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Nothing You Can Find – Reprise
I was thinking about an old post last night, Nothing You Can Find That Cannot Be Found, and about how lucky I was, that early in recovery, to have been protected from the worst of my temptations. A…
- November 9th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Oh, There’s No Place Like Home for the Holidays
Last night I realized that the three most recent pictures I have of my mother . . . are mug shots. The first was taken about 22 months ago when she was arrested in her driveway for “obstructing…
- November 6th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Sweeping
“Simply tell him that we will never get over drinking until we have done our utmost to straighten out the past. We are there to sweep off our side of the street, realizing that nothing worth whi…
- October 25th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Thin Again
I’ve always been a skinny person. Before my addiction to crystal meth the most I ever in my life weighed was 180 pounds. I’m also 6′4″ so while 180 isn’t exactly unde…
- October 16th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Day 5 (plus 1000)
I can’t believe it. Day 1000 passed without my noticing it. I was in Las Vegas at the time visiting my mom and dad. I spent the day hanging out with them, my great-uncle and his new wife and…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Day 5 (plus 1000)
I can’t believe it. Day 1000 passed without my noticing it. I was in Las Vegas at the time visiting my mom and dad. I spent the day hanging out with them, my great-uncle and his new wife and…
- October 8th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Exhausted . . . again. Naturally.
They’re out. They’re back in. They’re out. They’re back in. It’s exhausting. I’m afraid I have a growing prejudice against those that seem to want it but aren&…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Exhausted . . . again. Naturally.
They’re out. They’re back in. They’re out. They’re back in. It’s exhausting. I’m afraid I have a growing prejudice against those that seem to want it but aren&…
- September 27th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Back from the dead
I am really feeling grateful for my life today. And I’m feeling especially grateful for the time that I spent with my sponsor up in Atlanta and everything that has followed. Friday night I got…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Back from the dead
I am really feeling grateful for my life today. And I’m feeling especially grateful for the time that I spent with my sponsor up in Atlanta and everything that has followed. Friday night I got…
- September 26th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Old Ideas
“Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas and the result was nil until we let go absolutely.” -Alcoholics Anonymous, page 58 Some of us have tried to hold on to them without even…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Old Ideas
“Some of us have tried to hold on to our old ideas and the result was nil until we let go absolutely.” -Alcoholics Anonymous, page 58 Some of us have tried to hold on to them without even…
- September 21st, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Queers & Weirdos
“We don’t want anybody up here. We just tell people this place is nothing but a bunch of queers and weirdos,” my sponsor told me. There is a kernel of truth in it, of course, but…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Queers & Weirdos
“We don’t want anybody up here. We just tell people this place is nothing but a bunch of queers and weirdos,” my sponsor told me. There is a kernel of truth in it, of course, but…
- September 17th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
In Plain English
I bought a book the other day, right after I vomited my insanity here; Mindfulness in Plain English. And I’m encouraged because I finally found a definition of ‘faith’ that I can w…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
In Plain English
I bought a book the other day, right after I vomited my insanity here; Mindfulness in Plain English. And I’m encouraged because I finally found a definition of ‘faith’ that I can w…
- September 13th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Trouble, oh trouble, haven’t slept a day in years.
When I chose my current sponsor one of the things that attracted me was that even with 36-odd years sober, he was still able to share the truth at meeting level, particularly when things are difficult…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Trouble, oh trouble, haven’t slept a day in years.
When I chose my current sponsor one of the things that attracted me was that even with 36-odd years sober, he was still able to share the truth at meeting level, particularly when things are difficult…
- September 11th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
9/11
On this day, eight years ago, I was in jail awaiting trial on felony drug possession charges. I was one of a handful of people awake in my dorm watching television. I called my mom to tell her the…
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
9/11
On this day, eight years ago, I was in jail awaiting trial on felony drug possession charges. I was one of a handful of people awake in my dorm watching television. I called my mom to tell her the…
- August 26th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
The Office (and another Day 5)
For the last year I have worked out of my employer’s house. He had a couple of sales people in the den and I (barely functioning) endured the isolation of the spare bedroom. This week we ren…
- August 24th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Imagine
I was thinking today how there was a time when I couldn’t imagine life without crystal meth. Then there was a time that I couldn’t imagine life with crystal meth or without it. Now I can&#…
- August 22nd, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Fair Trade Economics – or Greed and Will Power and Luxury Sheets
There are natural limits on what I can compute on greed and will power alone, as I have said before, but greed and will power are my constant companions in the marketplace. I may be able to set them…
- August 20th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Resentment is the Number One Offender
To read more about how anger and resentment affect decision making in people, and therefor why it is fatal in addicts, I recommend “Portrait of the Angry Decision Maker” by Jennifer S. Ler…
- August 19th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Pathologies of Valuation
I love to listen to NPR. In fact my clock radio and my car radio have been tuned exclusively to NPR for decades. Today’s episode of Science Friday really captured me though, which is weird b…
- August 13th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
No Title
There may be other ways to stay sober. There are other ways to make love, too. You can make love standing up in a hammock, but there is an easier way to do it.
- August 12th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
Delusional
For the last month or so I have been in the grips of the insane idea that I have outgrown AA. I say it is an insane idea because 12 step recovery is the only thing that ever got me sober for any len…
- August 9th, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
In His Night
I learned a little while ago that another person I know in the rooms successfully escaped feeling anything ever again. It happens more often than I’m comfortable with; people try to get sober…
- July 30th, 2009
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- July 29th, 2009
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- July 28th, 2009
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- July 27th, 2009
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- July 26th, 2009
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- July 25th, 2009
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- July 24th, 2009
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- July 23rd, 2009
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SemiCharmed has posted a new entry on: The Last Chance Texaco
The Age of Epiphany
I have grown to really love reading Last Chance on the Stairway, a recovery blog written by a cat who’s “experience closely mirrors” my own; not just his experience in his addiction,…
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