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- December 13th, 2009
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tonight
no, i'm not going to apologize to him.no need.he and i see eye-to-eye. we understand each other without many words having to be exchanged.we made our peace.i am still buzzed. i am not 100% sober rig…
- December 9th, 2009
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brainstorming my emotions
discontentedmalcontentedlostaloneaimlessdestroyedbereftbrokendrowningtiredheavydark
- December 7th, 2009
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grim
i am here. i am back at the house.we had a brief exchange yesterday via text. i thought it was her attempt (a half-hearted one, anyway) to kind of send out an olive branch. i received a text from h…
- December 5th, 2009
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hands clean
so what do i do now?we had a tiff on the phone yesterday.okay, it was more than a tiff. it was really highly charged. i was the one trying to swallow my emotions. i didn't say much, but when i did…
- December 4th, 2009
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done
tonight, after work, my roommate and i met up with one of her ex-boyfriends, with whom she has remained close.we bar-hopped to several locations through the night.then the three of us ended up going b…
- December 1st, 2009
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- November 30th, 2009
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- November 24th, 2009
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irreparable
i am kind of fighting off a buzz right now. i have had -- mmmm, maybe three glasses of wine. i was done for midway through the second one. the third one was just a bonus. imagine me saying all tha…
- November 23rd, 2009
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- November 19th, 2009
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crossroads
these are uncertain times for me.i'm not sure what my next steps should be.i'm kind of scared.
- November 14th, 2009
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escapee
i'm in l.a. i'm on a self-imposed exile. a temporary excursion to escape my small, petty problems.she's at his house tonight.i thought a road-trip would be just the thing for me. hitting the road t…
- November 12th, 2009
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stagnant
although i am now going outside my health services provider network in order to get therapeutic help, i still have to wait until my first appointment, which is scheduled for early next week. after do…
- November 11th, 2009
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my health care provider sucks ass
number of days it takes between intake and your first scheduled visit with your therapist -- 20.amount of notice received for your therapist canceling on you -- 0.number of days until your therapist's…
- November 8th, 2009
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- November 6th, 2009
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a day off from work
i have had a busy morning.i ran three miles. went to visit my eye doctor. went to the tanning salon. all by 11:30 a.m.dimples and i had made plans to take a trip out into the country along with her…
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- November 5th, 2009
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right now
she is entertaining him at the house.he is going to eat dinner there tonight.then they are going to fuck.and then they are going to fall asleep together.i, of course, am not there. i am staying elsew…
- November 3rd, 2009
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- November 2nd, 2009
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unsent -- again
dear dimples – what the fuck is happening. i almost can't deal. i want to talk to you about it. but i know we can't. we both would get upset, angry, emotional. say hurtful things. …
- October 30th, 2009
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liar
okay.i just did something that i know was wrong of me to do.and it's one of those things which, once you do, you don't like what you learn but are nonetheless both enlightened and also stunned to lear…
- October 29th, 2009
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stress attack
i swear i get at least one each month. i get to a point where i'm in such an agitated state that my heart starts beating frenetically and hard, my blood pressure goes up, and i am in a tense state --…
- October 24th, 2009
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always the do-gooder
i went to see my therapist earlier this week.didn't really get a chance to talk with her, though. i was supposed to be there only for a very brief sketch of my issues, but the focus was supposed to b…
- October 22nd, 2009
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- October 19th, 2009
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unsent
an anonymous comment just now prompted me to go through this blog's archives. i wanted to go back and re-read some of the stuff i've written about dimples. i've gotten over her before; i can get over…
- October 18th, 2009
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the cliche of the pining romantic
i've gone and become a pathetic cliche.i haven't been eating. i've got that gnawing sensation of hunger in my tummy. but no desire to eat. the idea of eating makes me nauseous. all i've consumed t…
- October 17th, 2009
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devastated and destroyed
my chest is heavy and hurting right now. the left side.my heart won't stop its slow but joltingly hard pounding.boom . . . boom . . . boommy best friend. my most trusted confidante. my roommate. t…
- October 13th, 2009
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abbagirl has dugg: Gay sailor: My comrades locked me in a 'feces-filled kennel'
- October 8th, 2009
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- October 7th, 2009
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jealousy
she's gone out on a date with someone. a guy.it sounds like she likes him.i'm writhing with discomfort inside.
- October 4th, 2009
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- September 29th, 2009
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- September 28th, 2009
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- September 27th, 2009
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- September 24th, 2009
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triangles
i'm having a bit of a guilty conscience right now. the kind which you get when you know you have to do something -- it can be important or mundane, but you know you gotta do it -- and instead of gett…
- September 22nd, 2009
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having it bad
when does one stop wanting another who doesn't want her back?i don't know what i'm doing -- other than continuing to torture myself. my most dearest, my most favorite, my often most arrogant and ingr…
- September 13th, 2009
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- September 11th, 2009
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taking things too personally
dimples and i made plans earlier this week to take her kid to the zoo.we solidified the plans yesterday. "so the zoo," she said when she saw me at work, "we still on?""for sure," i said. i like the…
- September 9th, 2009
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going psycho
i'm in a really bad mood right now.just half an hour ago, i was angry. angry enough to want to hit someone. to throw a tantrum. start slamming things to the ground. break shit.now, while the anger…
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