- November 21st, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
When I was seven years oldIt was a very good yearIt was a very good year for small town boysWith hopes and dreamsAnd plentiful schemesIt seemed all was goldWhen I was seven years oldWhen I was in my t…
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- November 19th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
To non coders, a computer program seems almost like a work of magic: somehow, a collection of simple words - like DO WHEN CASE FOR UNTIL CONTINUE - in a computer file can be "run" and will do stuff. I…
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- November 16th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I have to submit daily to three questions (unless I cower at home all day):How tall are you, like seven foot?Do you play basketball? What's the weather like up there?If I'm in a gay club, there's the…
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- November 8th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I never thought I'd see the day where I'd drive over to West Hollywood without doing my hair, a cap barely clinging to my head. (My head is, as with all other parts of my body, oversized, and…
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- November 7th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
A little known fact about quantum mechanics is that it disproves God's omniscience. Now, we all know that a watched pot never boils. What does this have to do with God's omniscience? Well, did you als…
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- November 6th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I think it's possible the the people who are most wary around people with bipolar disorder, apart from those people - such as my boyfriend - who have previously got caught in the crossfire, are other…
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- October 30th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
One of the currents in my book (which will soon likely have to be removed from my website - but more on that in a second) is the search for achievement. The course of my life took a dramatic bad turn…
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- October 28th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
- October 20th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
(In Montreal, last week.)Our brief visit to Montreal - our only vacation of the year - was, in the words of Gandalf, "the deep breath before the plunge." I came back knowing that I had just over two…
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- October 18th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
So my first genuine circuit party has come and gone. Well, I should rephrase that, it was the first circuit party where I flew to a city on a date that specifically coincided with a circuit party. Sin…
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- October 14th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith So it's like this. I've been telling people all year long that I'm 45. Turns out I'm actually only 44, as Ben informed me yesterday! Still, I get a year back on my life.
- October 13th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
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- October 6th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
For those who don't know (I didn't despite 11 years of French), a "Matelot" is a sailor. Ben and I are going on our one and only vacation this year, a short trip to Montreal, and it's all but free due…
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- October 4th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
The vast black hole that ate away the late summer of 2006, when I had my immense manic episode, continues to slowly radiate (a la Hawking) lost information, even now, three years later. I was at such…
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- September 27th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I was sitting on the toilet today. This was at the Beverly Center, a posh mall in West Hollywood, but it wasn't a particularly posh toilet. A Mexican janitor was sweeping the floor (not in my cubicle)…
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- September 24th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
My problem, I think, is that I require at least six hours of sleep, preferably seven. I don't know how other busy people manage time, but unless I'm able to do like Margaret Thatcher, and get by with…
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- September 19th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith I always forget to look at Facebook - can go weeks without, no matter how much I promise myself to come more often and check in on peoples' lives.
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
(With Kirstie in Antelope Valley, and our beloved Indira, this spring.)... is probably the person I get along with best and like in the whole wide world, apart from, obviously Ben. Kirstie and I have…
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- September 18th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Every now and then, something in a newspaper or a magazine spurs me to write a letter to the editor. To my knowledge, only one of my thunderbolts has ever been published, and that was in the 80s, to n…
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- September 17th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Unlike the case for many blogs, I'm unlikely to use this space to regurgitate interesting of funny pieces of information from other media. But today I make an exception on account of Hydracoach, a min…
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- September 16th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
It's incredibly tedious to have your moods dictated by physical processes in your brain over which you have no control. Everything in my life is so good right now, relatively speaking, yet day in, day…
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- September 9th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
It occurred to me yesterday (and not for the first time), that I'm somewhat like Mr. Spock. Ironic. I used to go to sleep as a child and hope upon hope that I'd wake up and find I was Mr. Spock. Fasci…
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- September 2nd, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I often think about the word "crazy", and even identify with it. I came across a review of a movie in the New York Times, a comedy – if that is possible – about a bipolar guy. The reviewer describ…
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- August 30th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith Keith and Ben are going to teach Dean how to play Mah Jong.
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Party harder is the mantra of the moment. I should calibrate that statement: I'm using "party" in an old-fashioned sense, not in the current gay-circuit-party-get-wasted-on-drug sense. This weekend al…
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- August 27th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
(Our buddies.)For a couple of weeks, I've been surreptitiously working with Zeynep, a dynamo of a Turkish grad student in Ben's lab, to plan a surprise birthday party for Ben, this Tuesday night. I ha…
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- August 24th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
The last few months have been great at work. I'm doing work that's valuable to my company, that's extremely intellectually taxing, that is creative and will be part of something permanent. Like any b…
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- August 21st, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
(A recent photo. Not too shabby for forty-five. Photoshop helps with the wrinkles and furrows, of course.)No, for once I'm not talking about depression. I was transported again this morning by the inc…
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- August 20th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
It's so deeply frustrating. Every day this week, I've begun the day feeling great, full of life and energy, with a veritable spring to my step. But it's not maintained. Gradually, as the morning progr…
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- August 19th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Oh lord, I haven't written in over a week, despite my new intention to try to write every day. The usual excuses are hereby presented. I'm awfully busy at work. This monster that I've created for my s…
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- August 10th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Yesterday, we had brunch with Dean, and it occurred to me I had no idea what my closest friend's spiritual beliefs were, apart from the bare outlines that I knew of his interest in Buddhism. I'm in a…
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- August 8th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
The contrast between our two Saturday afternoon activities, all "arts and crafts" related, was quite funny. In the early afternoon, Ben spray painted my torso with body-paint. We are practicing for a…
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- August 7th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Since I don't want to write about depression all the time (and I'm damned sure YOU don't want to hear about depression all the time), and I'm not always overflowing with ideas begging to be expressed,…
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- August 3rd, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
The mind is a powerful thing. Since you spend all day inside it, you should probably learn how to wield its power. It struck me recently that the part of my life that isn't working - really the only p…
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- August 2nd, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Ben and I both have a sort of addiction to reading serious books about cosmology, and, in particular, theories of everything - the attempt to delve into the nittiest of the gritty to figure out what s…
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- July 27th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I had a decidedly quiet weekend. That is, until Sunday night. On Friday, we both worked, then went to the gym in the evening, and, by the time we got home, it was time for dinner, and our evening comf…
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- July 26th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith I have a great Lego collection!
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith All alone in the big house. Anybody want to come over and play with my toys?
- July 25th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
You wouldn't think a supermarket could be a "destination", but to the denizens of the five miles around downtown West Hollywood, the new, completely rebuilt Pavillons, which opened on Thursday, is the…
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- July 23rd, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
A new second chapter from my book, replacing pages and pages of rather dry backgound information.Book I – The Story So Far Chapter 1 - A Brief History of a Person What is a person? How did I be…
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- July 20th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith is considering how lucky he is to have such great friends. And since 25% of them are older than he is, he can still pretend he's just a big kid.
- July 18th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith is finally off Atkins induction. I can drink vodka again thank God! Am in Chinatown trying to buy a cute Chinese boy for our mantlepiece. Couldn't find one, so bought Mah Jong instead.
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
8.00 Saturday.Weather conditions: sparkling blue sky clear of clouds, rain clouds threaten. It's nice to wake up to such conditions, despite the threat of rain. I'm talking not about the real weather,…
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- July 16th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
There are good days, and there are bad days. My physical depression, which has recently returned, is a constant, although it has yet to become so pervasive that it seriously affects my mood. The way t…
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- July 14th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
I’m offering some reflections on the bad side of LA, the mirror-like surface against which people preen, the thing about LA that everybody “knows”. This morning at Golds Gym, Hollywood, Dennis R…
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- July 13th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith May be going to England for work!
- July 12th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
(One of the photos in my new photography book.)It's available now at Blurb. Click link below. A Body of Work:…
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- July 11th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Ben went this morning to a conference in Vancouver, and will be gone five days. It's not ideal timing for me, since I'm on the cusp of depression. This morning when I came back from dropping him off a…
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- July 10th, 2009
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brokenwhole has posted a new entry on: broken whole - 6'6 Hollywood Circuit Boy
Well, I had a good run. Something like two months, depression free. And, with inevitability, the bipolar cycle seems to have swung under the baseline. I've been noticing it for almost a couple of week…
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- July 6th, 2009
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brokenwhole has updated his facebook:
Keith My brain is entirely boggled. Too much work already!