Sara loved her son Paras so much and tried her best to make him happy .During the day time she was much busy in her duties but after 4pm when lady Rebecca took her nap Sara got enough time to be with Paras .She played with him .helped him in his studies and took him to the park near house where he played with other kids and swung .But in spite of all this Sara felt often herself guilty of her child because she realized that Paras missed his father badly .Since she left home and brought Paras along she start realizing that Paras is sad .He many times asked her that why they have left the home and why his father has not come with them.
Sara inevitably lied to him that they came here to settle forever and his father after making him transfer in this city will join them soon.She thought that Paras is just a child and after sometime will forget everything and become normal but it did not happen and with passing time Paras started ask to see his father more and more.That made Sara miserable and she thought that may be she made a mistake and because Paras is a very sensitive child her mistake could cause flaws in the brought up of her child.
In the deep inside of her heart Sara missed Robin along with her each breathe .Her heart was filled with pain and sorrow. It seemed as she has lost half of her existence .
Insidious world of her was like an endless dark barn path which was surrounded by thunder and howling wind. She found herself alone standing in middle of it with no sign of destination .She was wounded shivered and thirsty. Her lips were starving for a drop of water but sky above her head had no cloud for her.
In her loneliness she cried as hard as she was about to break into countless pieces and blow away with wind. But each time she felt a mysterious inner force that strengthen and composed her back into a woman with strong faith and hope .A woman who can rise like a marvelous sun among the huge high mountains of hardships and spread the light of faith, hope and goodness in the dark world around.
She arouse always with a new strength from her such weak moments and decided to move forward with courage and positivism .She had a faith in her God and in herself that she will resolve her problems and stay calm and focused until Robin come to get her back. Though she was sad that Robin had turned stranger to her but she knew it somehow that Robin loved her once and they shared some of most beautiful times together. She kept these precious memories in the depth of her heart and they were meant life to her.
Kristine was a lonely woman most of the time.Sara came to know through Rebecca that once in her twenties Kristine loved a boy named Mark .They both were about to get married when Mark died in an air crash .That accident changed the whole life of Kristine. She got her nervous break down and remained under medical care for one year. Her doctor prescribed her to change her place .Later she got this job in embassy and came to live here .
Rebecca further told Sara that after the death of Mark one of his friend William helped her to recompose Kristine emotionally .He used to visit her lot and try to cheer her up with his loyal efforts. Though he was married and father of one year daughter that time still he took great care of Kristine and tried to help her get out of the shell in which she stuck after the death of her lover. William often advised Kristine to get married as life is quite long journey and without partner is harder but Kristine always skipped topic while saying that no one can take the place of Mark in her life.
So though it were being almost more then twenty five years to the death of Mark Kristine was still spending her life in a tunnel which 's end had no gleam of freedom and happiness .She was shuttered in a shell of isolation and grief that made her though a lonely person yet she was an efficient worker and responsible daughter. Her love for her mother was not expressed through her moves but offering her duties only. She found this shell easy to live in with glorious memories of past .World outside her shell was like dark thick forest to her who's woods of relationships were tangled with complexity . Kristine unconsciously became an addicted to her sorrow and pessimism .She found it easy escape .Now she found it really hard to make new relationship or trust on a stranger .
Sara felt sorry for Kristine .Since she came here she learnt new facts about life .The company of lady Rebecca and Kristine was widening her vision of life .Few things that she found wrong earlier proved not bad actually .Specially in her society it was concept that if women dress like western women it means that they are intimating men towards them and are of vulgar attitude .The life style of those both western ladies was proof that each land has it's own traditional way of living and culture and one's dress is has nothing to do with his Character .Though dress describes the culture of one but not his attitude .
The other thing Sara learnt that love does exist in western countries too .Lady Rebecca was proof of a mother's love for her child .Kristine's caring attitude towards her mother expressed her love for her mother.And the biggest proof of love was the present life of Kristine who spent most of her life in the memory of his lover .Sara learnt that she is not the only on map who is suffering emotionally but many others are there like her though in different ways but they suffer .She learnt much through books she used to read for lady Rebecca .Sara felt as she is getting better in her way of thinking through all these learning and experiences.
to be continued.