Waiting has always been an inevitable part of my life. It's an inevitable part of anybody's life really, so there's no surprise that I'm continually waiting for the things I want.
When I was younger I had to learn to wait for the small things in life. Of course at that time the small things were in fact the big things as far as I was concerned. I remember waiting all day at primary school for the lunch bell to ring so I could then patiently wait in the tuckshop line to buy my favourite apricot balls. Do you remember apricot balls? As far as I was concerned they were the best thing at the tuckshop, and that was quite possibly linked to the fact they were 5c and I could always afford them.
As I got older there was a lot more waiting in lines for things I wanted. At McDonalds on my lunch break, Kmart and even at the movies {remember when we used to go to the movies all the time, before it became a ridiculously expensive outing?}. Although I swear I had a talent for picking the slowest line every single time without fail, each time I could see the end of the line. I knew I would get what I wanted and I could anticipate just how far away I was from getting it.
Fast forward to trying for a baby, while the waiting on the surface was the same, it was inherently different. This time I knew what I wanted and I knew I had to wait, but I had to wait in an invisible line with an invisible end point. For four years before bub was conceived I waited in that invisible line hoping to get to the end and get what I wanted, and eventually I did. For the past 17 months I've been waiting in the same invisible line hoping to once again get to the end and get what I want.
A few months ago I wrote about how I believed if I was patient I'd eventually get what I wanted. I've waited patiently for months, and I still have to wait for many more, but now it's different. For the next 7 months I have to wait, but I can see the end of the line and I know I'll get what I want. I've waited for almost a year and a half for our next baby and in 7 months time I know I'm going to meet them. This time I'm happy to wait and I'm not willing those months to fly by, I want to live in the moment and experience it all. I want to soak it all in and appreciate this period of waiting, because I don't know if I'll ever get to experience it again.